Keep On Dreamin'

Dear Baby,

Right now I'm having such a hard time keeping focus. We got the test results we were waiting on today and they weren't good. We have been given the options of IVF with ICSI as a recommendation for being able to bring you into our future. IUI will more than likely not be successful.

Well, IVF is the same way with a 36% rate for transfer. The cost is way out there as well at the tune of $15,000 based on internet findings.

Where does this put things? I totally do not know. We are trying to intake what we can and press on because that is what we must do. Hate being apart from daddy right now as we aren't there to work through things together.

Love,

Future Baby Mama

It's Been A Long Time

Dear Baby,

It's been an extremely long time since I have thought about sharing on this blog. So long that the previous two posts didn't make sense so I have reverted them to drafts as to not confuse the new.

We have now been trying to conceive (TTC) for a year. It started with a trip to my new OBGYN and was started back on NuvaRing to regulate my cycle due to the PCOS. Granted at this time, I was also still trying to lose weight after gaining so much in the prior two years. After getting regular on NuvaRing, I was taken off and then started taking Clomid to stimulate ovulation.

12 months of BBT charting, ovulation testing and 100 mg of Clomid for 5 days per cycle and still no baby. I will tell you that a baby is something that Daddy and I talk about all the time. We can't wait to have you in our lives.

Fast forward to last week. I went to our new Fertility Specialist at UT-Southwestern. He greeted us right away while the nurse was taking my vitals. Talk about service! Blood pressure and temp were good, and when I got on the scale I was down 6.4 lbs! Granted, I still want to lose 85 more {would settle with 60 more} but it's a start in the right direction again. Clomid was hard on my body.

After about an hour discussion with Dr. Boo {not his real name, but it is what I call him since I can't pronounce it}, I had my exam. Talk about fun times. Dr. Boo was very explanatory during the exam. He showed me really good images of my ovaries and even told his Student Intern that I was a good case of polycystic ovaries. He counted 13 of them on my right ovary alone but that all things were fine. Onto the left and he was happy {as was I} to see that I had ovulated the prior month.

A few days later, the nurse called and let me know that all of the 9 vials of blood had been tested and tests were good. Negative on all counts that needed to be and now it was time for Daddy to take his tests.

Currently still waiting on test results from those. I have an appointment to see a neurologist on August 3rd as Dr. Boo wants me to discuss my Depakote ER with him. I have mixed feelings because I have now been on it 21 years and I don't want to possibly harm things.

So that's where we are now in our path to making our family more complete.

Love you,

Your Future Baby Mama