Green Days Ahead

Dear Baby,

I look at the calendar on my iPeriod app every day. I take the time to track as much as I can. It has helped for sure. The calendar currently tells me "green days" are on the horizon.

What does that mean? Quite simply, peak ovulation time in my cycle. Well, my body for sure feels it this month. My boobs are heavy, swollen and flat out hurt. Don't know anything else that's causing it because we didn't do Clomid this month.

Daddy and I have both been doing everything we can to make ourselves better. Boxers, no hot showers before/after, vitamins, healthier eating, losing weight... Will they work?

Still waiting to hear from Dr. Boo. In the middle of the Depakote to Keppra transition. No adverse affects but definitely feeling side effects. Praying that when the full transition comes next week, it will be smooth.

Love Always,

Future Baby Mama

It's Been a Week

Dear Baby,

It's been a week since we started adding in the Keppra to my daily cocktail of meds. Granted I've only taken a 1/2 pill in the AM and PM, I have noticed quite the mood swings with it. I do get agitated a bit more and I am hoping that with time of being on the B6 as well that this will phase off. I don't want to be the mean mama!

Today started of upping the dosage to a full pill in the AM and a full pill in the PM. One more week and we are taking out the Depakote ER completely. A bit apprehensive about this still and unsure what the affects will be. I do know that it's the best thing for you and in the end that is most important.

Daddy and I talk about you a lot more these days. You are there in our eyes even though we never know when it will happen.

We love you!

Love,

Future Baby Mama

One Month In

Dear Baby,

As of today, I am officially one month in on the taking of Phentermine to help kick-start my weight loss so that I can be a healthier mama. Now, I know of the effects that it can have on a baby but they are VERY low and I don't plan on taking this past the prescribed amount of time by Dr. Mc {my physician}.

As of this weeks weigh in, I have lost a total of 9.7 lbs this month. I can't tell you how happy this makes me. I am back over the amount that I was at just a year ago.

At the end of the school year, I set a goal to work on losing 15 lbs before we started back to school on August 27th. At this point, I still have almost  weeks to lose another 5.3 lbs. At this point, I totally think that I can do this because of the success I have seen so far.

I have been using Phentermine as well as eating a healthy diet. Phentermine has given me super amounts of energy but I am also experiencing the down side of not wanting to sleep at night despite taking it first thing in the morning with breakfast. At the weight I am now, I am right around 1800 calories a day according to My Fitness Pal.

I will be honest, there are days I just don't want to eat. I don't feel like anything tastes good, I don't crave things, I don't have the urge to satisfy my hunger. Then there are times that my stomach gets to the point that if I don't eat right then, it might be the end of the world as we know it. I feel full at every meal and know how much my body can handle. I can tell things are changing and it's all for the better.

All of this is done out of my love and desire to have happy, healthy baby to bring into our family.

Love,

Future Baby Mama

Back and Forth, Back and Forth

Dear Baby,

This Friday we have an appointment with the neurologist per Dr. Boo's request. He wants us to check and see if there is a way to come off the pretty blue-gray pills I take for my Epilepsy and to get on something that would be less harmful to you in the long run. I'm guessing they will also probably add in a prescription of Folic Acid as well to help with the negative effects.

I'm having a hard time with how to go with this one. I wan you to be as healthy as you are able to be. I want you to live the life you are supposed to live. I want you to be free of pain. But on the other hand, I want to stay free of seizures on my end. I have been on these pills or 20 years now. They are my lifeline in some ways.

What's best for both of us? I don't know. Only the doctors can educate and help use decide.

Love Always,

Future Baby Mama

P.S.After writing today's entry, I went off on a Google hunt. Of course I found no other blogger who is/has taking/taken Depakote ER during pregnancy. While I was on that search, I did find this article straight from the source on Epilepsy. I'm thinking this might come with us to the doctor on Friday.

More Pills?

Dear Baby,

Life always has a way of allowing you to realize you are blessed. I am blessed to have health care insurance. Despite the times when I want to scream at the premiums, I am still blessed to be able to have the insurance.

Why? Because my daily doses of meds would put us in the poor house if not.

The two blue-gray pills I've been taking for 21 years! That's my Depakote ER for Epilepsy. It's also the drug that Dr. Boo is most worried about during a pregnancy. It's a Class D drug which is just a notch below Class X. We have an appointment with a neurologist son to discuss our choices. I'm kind of leery on changing.

The 2 small salmon colored pills, those are my Celexa. This is my chill pill. It helps with my Anxiety and OCD. Is also what we had to recently double from just 20 mg to now 40 mg. things are much better now.

The little white pill, well that's Provera. This month, I didn't cycle so we have to give it a jump-start of sorts. Only a few more days left to take this.

And the last big blue horse pill, well that's my Prenatal Vitamin. Crazy big but worth it all for the extra benefits for you.

See, I'm very blessed. I have all of these meds to help various aspects of my life that I couldn't imagine without them. All for the health of mama and baby!

Love,

Future Baby Mama