The Waiting Game

Dear Baby,

It's been awhile since I've had anything to add to this story. I still don't have much.

I have now fully been off Depakote ER for 10 days. I'm taking the Keppra religiously in the morning an night. Moved the Celexa to take one in the morning and one at night to not have to taper off affect mid-afternoon. Things are working well with me.

Weight is down but haven't had a chance to weigh in for the last two weeks. Hope to find a way this week so I can see what month 2 on Phentermine has produced.

Haven't heard anything from Dr. Boo on next steps. Haven't called yet but might this week.

Have an EEG coming up in October to look forward to.

I look at photos of new babies online from friends and despite being happy for them, I still want to hold you one day and know that you are mine.

Love,

Future Baby Mama

More Pills?

Dear Baby,

Life always has a way of allowing you to realize you are blessed. I am blessed to have health care insurance. Despite the times when I want to scream at the premiums, I am still blessed to be able to have the insurance.

Why? Because my daily doses of meds would put us in the poor house if not.

The two blue-gray pills I've been taking for 21 years! That's my Depakote ER for Epilepsy. It's also the drug that Dr. Boo is most worried about during a pregnancy. It's a Class D drug which is just a notch below Class X. We have an appointment with a neurologist son to discuss our choices. I'm kind of leery on changing.

The 2 small salmon colored pills, those are my Celexa. This is my chill pill. It helps with my Anxiety and OCD. Is also what we had to recently double from just 20 mg to now 40 mg. things are much better now.

The little white pill, well that's Provera. This month, I didn't cycle so we have to give it a jump-start of sorts. Only a few more days left to take this.

And the last big blue horse pill, well that's my Prenatal Vitamin. Crazy big but worth it all for the extra benefits for you.

See, I'm very blessed. I have all of these meds to help various aspects of my life that I couldn't imagine without them. All for the health of mama and baby!

Love,

Future Baby Mama